Zero to Hero

Sometimes a dreamer,
Is a loser.

Somtimes, Reality,
Isn't what it seems to be.

Therefore,

Dare

To

Dream..

Don't give up hope.

When the going gets tough,
Roughen up and just be tougher.

Even if you fall, you'll know that
You've done you're best
And don't blame yourself for your failure

For you know that you've given your all!
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Haha! 3 am in the morn..Still as restless as hell! WOOHOO! Well, that was just a little something to cheer everyone up for the upcoming year!

But truth is, it's just something as a 're-assuarance' to myself incase something bad or something happens to myself! So, I'M THINKING POSITIVE! YAYYY! + OWNS - !!!

Wow, it's been awhile since I updated. Haha. Nothing much has happened. But there were a few events which happened.

THE NEW FRIGGING GUNDAM GAME IS OUT!!! WAHAHA!!! I'm HIGH!!!It's a nice shooting game with nice graphics.

Then, just now, my damn TapZ card got some error and they have to take my card away for a month..A MONTH! HOLY!!A MONTH OF NO ARCADE! HaHA...I ain't complaining though. It's gonna do me some good as I guess, I'll be concentrating more on my studies then.

Well, other then that, something captured my heart..Haha..I guess, my prediction of not wanting or getting another gf is wrong ^^

Time went by..
I keep on getting glances of you..
At the most unlikely places..

I was an idiot..
Who take things for granted and miss out on the good things
which are right infront of me..

We share the same passion.
I wanna make her mine but, alas, it's seems so far away.
But,

I won't give up.
My feelings are true.
You blew me away..

Won't give up.
Not now.
Not till you are in my arms.

Even if it does fail,
At least,
I know that
I've tried~

It's in the weee hours and I'm still bloody, hyper active >___>

Well, the reason is simple..

I'M SINGING! WOHOOO! SINGING! From The All American Rejects to japanese songs from Gazette!

And while looking through the lyrics, I found the translation for the song called Miseinen from Gazette.

I'd like to dedicate this song my cosplay friends who were there when I'm down, my Parents and most of all, to myself!

Well, enough with the crap..Here's the song.

Miseinen
Single: Miseinen
Lyrics: Ruki

I was frantically looking for something.
It's okay to stumble, so go forward.
I know it's foolish, I just run on without regret.
The only one I can trust is myself, I didn't need friends.
The fangs I bared at anything and everything,
sexual stuff in adolescence is delicate and fleeting.
I wanna be strong, give me the strength to live on my own,
honestly, I was just scared of betrayal.
I knew that nothing would change if I kept running away
but I couldn't change myself.
The loneliness I prided myself on
was a pair of wings to escape to my worthless dreams.
The self assertion I prided myself on called 'RIOT',
there was no freedom, nothing beyond this light.
Teenage Bluely Days,
I was drowning in each rough new day.
Before I knew it I was shouldering such loneliness.
It was hard. To be honest,
I really didn't want to be on my own.

Since always pretending to be strong makes one forget one's true face.
It's important to occassionally loosen up and rely on others.
Hurt... When you want to cry, face the great big sky
and scream out in a loud voice.
That you want to forget yourself, so you can keep being who you are.
The encouraging voices of my father, my mother, and my friends
spurred on, even one so weak as myself, they gave me light.
The loneliness and pain of my youth that I prided myself on
were a pair of wings to escape to my worthless dreams.
If there's a freedom to be had in that clear blue sky
I wouldn't care if these wings I'm so proud of were torn off.
I began running, frantically aiming for the sky
I spread my wings and flew away, and the spot where I fell
was 'freedom'.
With a wonderful family, and wonderful friends
these were the best days of my life, if I'm reborn
let's meet again...

Haha..Some of Gazette's songs never ceases to amaze me with their meanings in their songs..Thanks Shermaine for getting me addicted to Gazette!!! ^^

WOOOOO!!!!!

ANOTHER DAY JUST WENT BY!! A FEW MORE DAYS TILL SCHOOL STARTS! AND I DIDN'T DO MY BLOODY HOMEWORK!!!

Woke up at 11. Waited for mum to go off. Left me with $15. I grinned evily.

Waited for grandma to come home around 3. Then went of to Jurong Entertainment.

BOUGHT TICKETS FOR DEATH NOTE!!!WOHOOO~! 6:40 SHOW AND I'M BLOODY WATCHING ALONNNEEE!!!WAHAHAHA!!!

Went to arcade..again >____> Played drums and Initial-D AGAIN! LOOOLLL!! Played para once..BUT GUESS WHAT!!!!

I failed...>____>

THE BLOODY SENSOR IS SPOILED I TELL YOU!!! S.P.O.I.L.E.D!!!!

Anyways, stayed there till 6:35. Bought myself a pepsi and hotdog bun with cheese toppings! CHEEEESSSSSSEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!YAAAAAAAY!

Went into the cinema and was surprised not much people inside. Heh, even better..

Watched the movie intently..

At the end..One thing stucked into my mind..

I WANT A GIRLFRIEND LIKE MISAMISA!!! A GIRLFRIEND WHO WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR YOU!! WOHOO!

But alas, It's all but a fantasy TT___TT~ Sighhhh~~

From there, went home and eating cereal now...AT THIS HOUR!!! XDDD

Well, that's all for today~ Thanks for reading!! JA MATA!

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MISA MISA!!!!!

Sigh..It's another of those 'time wastage' days..

Woke up in the morning to find that it wasn't raining..
So, with high spirits, I asked my mum to switch on the comp..

Installed something to my comp called 'Widgets'. It's a cool thing from Yahoo. I get to monitor my comp's both visual and physical memory with one of the Widgets called, Memory Gauge. Once I switched it on, I found out why my bloody comp was lagging...
Out of 100, the bar was already at 81..From there, I started to delete LOTS AND LOTS of stuff.

Other cool Widgets are the CPU portal which shows both system and user CPU usage. Another is the digital clock. IT DAMN NICE!!!

Around 10:30, Called Mid. But she was sleeping..And I too fell asleep.

When I woke up, I checked my hp olny to find that, she can't come over cos it was raining..So, there wasn't any jamming =__=

When I went out of my room to use the comp again. However when I checked the gauge again, The user usage was over the limit! I was like, "WTF!!! Is there something wrong with the programe?!!".

After a few tries, my comp was alittle stable. Thats when I heared the new of Taiwan being hit by an earthquake thus damaging the marine cables =___=

Pissed, I went out to brush up on my drumming and racing. Had a great race with one of profesional racers. Surprisngly, our skill differential is not much. So, I'm happy that I can even manage to keep up.

After that, proceeded with the bloody drums >__________> Played Dragon Blade extreme AGAIN!!! WAHAHAHA! PLAYED LIKE A MAD MAN!!!!WOHOOOOOO!!!PLAY UNTIL STICK FLY~!! YAY!

Well, I kinda get the hang of the song now. And I olny failed the song once today. Met alot friends which I haven't met for so long. Haha~ I was so absorbed in love that I fail to cherish the things around me..

After a LONG drumming session, where I had no idea how much money I forked out >_____>, I went to NTUC Fair Price to buy some groceries.

Haha..Now I understand how much my mum suffered when she carries all those heavy groceries. I should follow her more often..

Trudged home, in the rain, with Cassis by Gazette in my ears. It pains me when I hear that song. Found out the english lyrics and I was pained. It was so touching..Too bad I can't dedicate it to anyone..

Reached home. Hand cramp =__=" Ate my CHEESEBURGER! AND COKE! YAAY! AND THE BLOODY INTERNET CONNECTION IS STABLE!!!! (but not fast >________>) Anyway~

Can't wait for the end of days! THEN ITS 2007!!! AND SEC 4!! AND MORE WORK! NO LOVE! NO EXTRA-MARITAL AFFAIRS!! MORE DETENTION! 'N' LEVELS!!! NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!!!

Most of all..Even when hope is gone, Move along..

Rain x Snow

Wind,
Blowing against my face.

I wake up in the morning with a frown on my face.
I look out of my window
and what did I see?

The clouds were grey.
I could feel the wind getting stronger.
I could see thunder and lighting.
Striking angrily, just like my anger and angst
Which I have been bottling up this years.

Visibility was low.
My mind is as clouded as the sky.
I'm as lost as a wandering soul.

Where should I go next?

What do I do now?

What is my existence here for?

After so much that has happened, I remembered my passion.
That burning desire which I had since a child.

I've gained enlightenment and I know now what I'm supposed to do.

On this rainy christmas, I sit silently by my window..

Wishing..

Hoping..

Praying..

For this christmas, It's snowing in my heart.
Freezing all needless emotions
and the fiery passion will soon melt
all this snow which will soon mark the start of spring.

To be able to race for eternity,
To feel the wind brushing against my face
and most of all, to be able to enter a world of my own,

That's what I wanted all along.

But for now,
I just need to enjoy the snow
And be frozen till spring comes.

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>___>

<____<

Enough with the emotional stuff!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!

Honto ni Arigato

I fell into a deep slumber
A slumber which I can't forget up till now
And it's due to the fact that I dreamt of something.

Something which I will never forget.

In that dream, I met my first love. My first kiss.

Ahh..How sweet the dream was.
But, All good things come to an end.

In just a few, I regained conciousness
and was faced with reality again.

It was a dream which wasn't meant to be
And never will be.

God gave me a taste of how it was like to be in love
but, he also has the power to take it away.

How much of an idiot could I be,
for not cherishing it while it lasted.

I don't know what to say to myself.
For I love this one person so much.

Even though I said I was alright infront of my friends,
Truth is, I just can't get over it.

Why can't mermories be altered like computer data?

I believe, there's a reason so.
And that is to make us remember the past.

We should look back into the past,
If there was mistakes committed, then we should learn from our mistakes.
If it were beautiful memories, we should hang on to them and cherish them for eternity.

We shouldn't be embarrased nor hide our past away.
We should make it a learning experience instead.

All this, I speak of,
Was triggered by that dream.
It's like pulling the trigger of a gun.
Where in an instant, a bullet will be shot out.
A bullet can either be used to kill for one's self or to protect.
It's a double edged sword.

Thatnks to that dream,
I learnt more about this world and have a more insight and perspective on things.

I thank you for that.

Thank you.

Truly, Thank you.
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With nothing better do, did a Christmas Day 'present' siggie for my friend.

Flames to dust.

Lovers to friends.

Why do all good things come to an end?

Come to an end..

Come to an end..

Why do all good things come to an end?

Tagged by Mid >___>

I would....
1) Learn to play the drum better
2) Train and tone my body
3) Practice singing
4) Pick myself up
5) Learn to make decisions by myself
6) Learn how to solve my own problems without asking for help
7) Find more Gazette songs >________<
8) Eat more
9) Not take things for granted anymore..
10) Be a better human and change for the better

People should...
1) Learn how to accept cosplayers
2) Cosplay
3) Accept Hard Gay as a good guy instead of a wierdo/disgusting fella
4) Appreciate their parents..(Without them, we won't be here..)
5) Appreciate your friends..

Things(in physical states or events that you hope to engage in..)You want right now which could never happen.
1) Pilot a Gundam >___<
2) Be a musician/singer
3) Be a good anime artist
4) Be very smart/handsome
5) Be a perfect boyfriend.

Nothing much to update. Have been rotting at home..School's starting soon. Haven't even done my school hw =__= I'm in deep shit if I don't start soon. But, hell, I don't give a damn..

Gonna have to pay Shermaine the katana money. At the same time, pass her my Christmas present for someone. Hope she likes it..*Keeps fingers crossed and hopes she doesn't throw it into the bin or something*

Currently listening: All good things come to an end by Nelly Furtado

The end of the world

In the end where this sky goes,
The waves of the future can't be seen yet.

As long as we've lived how many of us have risen above fate?
Who's going to teach us, who's going to ask us?

People are frightened of encountering the end of their lives,
But I'm not afraid.
Even if this world ends today,
I will still love you.

The sunbeams streaming through the leaves are gentle,
But for that eternity cried.

The earth becomes blue in my overflowing sorrow
Words wither, and love is all that remains, right?

People are bewildered that life must end
And time strikes them harshly.
But even if this world ends today,
I will still protect you.

Your smiling face delivers light that heals me.

People are frightened of encountering the end of their lives,
But I'm not afraid.
Even if this world ends today,
I will still love you.

Nothing much to updated..Gonna go out with Jer, GH(Potato), Kyuu, Mid, Shino(NARUTO!!!) and Zero. Gonna play pool and bowling today. Sigh..And I suck in both..I guess, I'll just watch them play.

Anyways, its freezing here..and it's still raining thus the overflowing inspiration..

I'm gonna enjoy myself today..I know I am..

Sorry for not posting this past few days. Lots of events happened..

It's been raining heavily this few days. Not that I'm complaining. It's actually doing some good. It calms my mind and heart. It's also the time where alot of inspiration pours in. Thanks to some recent events, I am being even more inspirational.

Here's some food for thought.

Rain. And example of mixed emotions.

Think about it ^^

I honestly think that I'm getting weaker and weaker. My sickness hasn't subsided since a few days ago. It's like almost one week...Sigh..I want to be fit again TT____TT

Anyways, nothing much to update.

The reason I've been in this shity state that I am in this whole day? Sorry if they don't make sense..Mind me..

I only want to be with you

I don’t know what it is that makes me love you so
I only know I never want to let you go
‘Cause you started something, can’t you see
That ever since we met you’ve had a hold on me

It happens to be true
I only want to be with you

You stopped and smiled at me, asked me if I’d care to dance
I fell into your open arms and I didn’t stand a chance

Now listen honey, I just wanna be beside you everywhere
As long as we’re together honey I don’t care
‘Cause you started something, can’t you see
That ever since we’ve met you’ve had a hold on me

No matter what you do
I only want to be with you

No matter (no matter) what you do
I only want to be with you

No matter (no matter) what you do
I only want to be with you


I’m a Loser

When I talk to you, I can’t find the thing to calm my heart’s sorrow

I don’t know the time when my stretched head was connected to my neck

Hold my hands

The betraying cloud soon clears up

Yes, a grain of light flows through a rift between clouds

Oh tell me what you want

An ordinary sorrowful farewell

Oh tell do you feel the same?

A destination where untouching words still do not remain...

Oh tell me what you want

Distant land with uncertain partings

Give me a chance to catch my breath
Give me a chance to catch my breath

Tired from walking, Just let me rest already..


Now I'm sure

It’s not easy to explain
The way I feel for you
Though sometimes I cause you pain
But never meaning to
I could never hurt you
Without hurting myself
Cause you’re part of me now
Part of me like nobody else
And I just pray every day
Nobody takes you away
Cause I need you
And no one could love you more
Now I’m sure Now I’m sure
I’m through with all those years
Of wandering
I made you cry
But dry your tears
Cause now I’m sure
Now I’m so sure
I know I’ll never need
Somebody more
Cause you’re the one
I’ve waited for
And now I’m sure

Hey all..

My mood level is decreasing rapidly. After yesterday, I'm hit with high fever. Temperature was at 39.1 degrees celcius. I can barely move. Head feels heavy. Feels like I could collapse anytime. Gonna make my update quick and not beat around the bush.

Yesterday was a nice day but towards the end, it wasn't.

Went to Simei in the morning to collect kid sis's school uniform. From there, went to East point with Mid to meet-up with Sawa and Guo Hao. Went to eat at Banquet. Ate olny 3 pieces of chiken wings and a cup of bandung. Sigh..I hate being poor..

From there, went to the arcade for awhile while waiting for Shermaine. Played the drums (as usual)..Was kinda pissed that the 9th mix didn't have that much songs and NO DRAGON BLADE!!! Still, managed to pass the basic of this new fave song of mine. Still gotta get used to the tempo and rythm.

Once I was done, the rest were still playing Daytona. I joined in olny 1 race but lost to GH. Got second. Shermaien who had just arrived played with us and got last >_<

From there, we left for sawa-chan's house. Even though I was looking forward to it, I was also dreading it. One reason, sawa's mum. the 'nother reason, I can't tell.

Anyways, reached sawa's house. As usual, her overly energetic and wrong-side-humping dogs greeted us. I seriously don't mind dogs, Just that, I can't tocuh them. I especially like one of her dogs I affectionally call, 'carpet'. Due to its fur ^^

Placed our bags. Went to sawa's room and asked Mid to help me with my blog. In the end, it seems that the blogskin was still 'stubborn' and didn't let the html show the comments link. However, as she was doing her stuff on the comp, could hear evil laughter from outside.

Went to check it out..

And..

Shermaine was playing KATAMARI! Wahaha~! Today, they got punished by the Katamari king alot of times. He really lives up to the phrase, "You can run but you can't hide". >_______<

From then on, played a ton of other games. Up till sawa's mum came home with the food. The others went out to eat. I just sat there and watched. They decided to watch 'Agent Cody Banks'. After a few, sawa's maid came back with Nasi Lemak. Ate and then went to sit down. Was already feeling very woozy. So, I slept without them knowing. Had a bad feeling. Woke up thanks to sawa's constant poking to ask me to go to her room to sleep.

Went as asked to. Sat down on her matress. Played Tekken 5 on the PSP. Tried to keep my calm and tried to be the me who I usually am. But I failed. Got knocked out again. This time, had a vision. Sigh..Why can't I just stop seeing all this things..

"Help me...
Would you..
Help me?
Be my friend..

Jolted from sleep. Was lucky Mid wanted to leave already. Trudged home with Guo Hao. Went home. Bathed. Recooperated and had a conversation with the rest. I can't remember anything from last night. Did I put down the phone and dozed off? Or did I slept on them again? Sigh..

Well, that's all. Won't be going on the comp for the whole of today. Wants to rest. Need energy for EOY and upcoming days.

Just came back from a morning run. Boy that felt great~ It's been awhile since I had a good run. Muscles aching now though >__<

Things I'm gonna do today:
-Collect my kid sis's uniform from cousin
-Meet my dear beloved
-Go to the M.A.G.E shop
-Go to Sawa-chan's house
-Getting enough sleep!
-Find more Doujins!!

Anyways, gonna share some of photoshop works. It's not really good but I'm proud of my works. Please do not rip them ^^







Disclaimer: These are MINE. Please be so kind and not rip or copy them. Thank you ™

Had fun today. Went to follow GH to collect his Zangetsu (Shikai) and return my bloody, gay, wig with potato(Guo Hao) and the core of the sun (Mid) XD. Refunded it for $40 bucks. Wanted a full refund of $50 but in the end, was lazy to protest. Happy with 4 red notes in my pocket, went to Shermaine's house in a cab from Arab Street to Ang Mo Kio. Those who were already there, Jer, my dear beloved and of course, Shermaine! >__<

Ok..that was lame~ Anyways, played lots of games there. Watched Shermaine play the most sadistic game, Katamari!!! I mean, WTH! Just one friggin' small ball comes to play and it can like suck up the whole universe including the SUN! *Looks at mid* >___<" After that, jer and sawa-chan went to get food for themselves and the rest. Once they were back, played Fatal Frame 2. Sick and tired of that bloody game =__= Jerome was screaming like a lass and sawa ish cute when she's scared ^^ After that, played Soul Calibur 3! Then Guo Hao had to go off to collect his Zangetsu which he complained later was too heavy =_= In my opinion, it's better if it's heavy. It makes sure those kiddies don't mess around with it cos they aren't strong enough to carry!

After that, played Burnout: Revenge! I blew my car's bloody engine!!! >__________< Was stunned for a moment. But they still can't beat me in a race ^^ After that, played Tekken 5 for awhile. Was kinda short as I had 10 mins before I left.

Once that was done, followed my dear beloved to collect her red contacts and Shermaine's Akito/Agito wig from her supplier @ Aljunied. Kissed her farwell and took the train home. Almost fell asleep on train. Went home and what was waiting for me? 6 PIECES OF KFC CHIKEN AND A 1.5 LITER BOTTLE OF PEPSI!!! ZOMGWTFBBQ!!! I'm gonna get fat XD

Anyways, gonna go conver. now ^^ Will try to update frequently.

Gonna upload some of the Chinese Garden Photoshoot. Was a great experience. Experimented with some new effects and poseses.

Wooohooo~~! >_____< 1st post!!!!!!! Wahahahaha! Took me like 2-3 hours looking for a nice blog skin XD

Well, did nothing much today. Went to Jurong East to wander around as usual. Went to the arcade cos I had a few bucks to spare. Brushed up on my drumming and Initial-D skills. Creamed a few newbies in the process. WAHAHAHA!! I'm evil!!

*Ahem*

Still in the process of tuning my Toyota Celica GT-4 (ST205) for Ver.3 and the Honda Integra Type R (DC2) for Ver.2. Learnt to play a few more songs on the drum too. Still noob at it though *sobs*

After that, went home and played alittle Super Robot Wars: Original Generation 2! On my emulator~! Dygenguard ROCKS! Quote: "I am Sanger Zonvolt! The sword that smites evil!"

Haha~ I love that phrase >____< Okay.. I'm high today! WEEEEE! Can't wait for tommorow and Tuesday~! Get to see my dear beloved again!

Gonna go conver. now =D