Just would like to clarify that. If those who read my blog feels that your pissed or hate me. I don't mind. Just wanted to state that I'm meaning no offence to anyone of you all. If it means you, then my deepest appologies. But if you choose to be a jackass and continue complaining and talking behind my back, then oh too bad for you. Go and cry to your mum or hate me or whateva..Told you this is my emotional intercooler. I already said I'm sorry if you're in but hell..Nobody asked you to read it in the first place.
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Placed two songs from The GazettE. "Filth in the beauty" and "Reila". Enjoy em. Press play and pause it first to let it buffer. Don't want to listen to a 'hanging' song rite?

Well, so many things, so little time. And I just realised I'm blogging normaly! YAAY! Well, there's gonna be the Adam Khoo workshop for the next three days from 8am till 9pm!!! Wooohhoooo!! Something to kill my boredom and motivate me to be a better person! So looking forward to it. He made people cry last year cos they realised their mistakes. Wonder if I'll cry...Certainly hope not ^^

I love my new school. It makes you feel as if you're in a working life. I mean, go to school so far away in the morn and coming home late everyday around 6pm? It gives me the feeling that I've conquered the day!!

This past few days, one of the teachers kept on pestering me to write a composition!! I wonder why..She just told me that she read my compo and wanted to know how much I've improved. Well, gonna type it out after this. Hope she likes it ^^ It's about a guy who got stranded on the island and his few days there before he left the island by making a raft!

Haha. I want to scream all my frustrations/stress/sorrow out!!! >___< So many bottled up!! Sighhh~~ Sick of people calling me an emo. Ain't not now ^^ It's just that I write my emotions down in poem form. Doesn't mean I'm emo!!! I'm just expressing it out! It's way better then punching things/ venting out your anger on something or someone else or even scolding them vulgarities..

And I would like to take this time to say sorry to EVERYONE in Singapore Cosplay Club if you hate me or piss you off in a way or another. Hope that clears everything. But if you still wanna continue keep grudges, go ahead. Fine by me ^^

Why am I so all cheerful and all? Cos I listen to 'Miseinen' by GazettE everyday on the bus!!! It reminds me that I have friends and family! So, I'm never alone~!

And went out with her to the reservoir on sunday. Got to know about her more on that day~ I just hope that she sees my feelings for her. After the previous relationship, no more lying to myself. Stay true and go for it!
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Zakurogata no Yuutsu

Band: The GazettE
Album: Disorder

Cry and cry, and when the tears have stopped,
let's keep a smile on our faces.
Cry and cry, and if you smile to me, ever by my side.

The morning light coming from the window
looks different than usual.
This ill air is because I've seen what lay ahead
when the get-well flowers in the vase wilt.
< I'll leave you, discard everything and go somewhere far away.
You always kid around to cheer me up
cheerfully showing me kindness, caring more about me than yourself...
It must be tough. Seeing me this way.
Why don't you just come and say you're tired?
You never made a sour face,
you simply held me gently and cried for me.

I wanna live, I don't wanna die. Everytime I think of it, the tears spill.
I wanna live, there's nothing I can do for you

It seems like I've been asleep quite awhile,
next to me only your scent remains.
I felt a bit uneasy, the fear welling up within me.
And the days go by, a memo came to me
as I waited for you to come home. It was from you.

I was left dumbfounded by what was written.
I cried out as if I'd been broken.

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(the memo)
I'm sorry.
for acting without your consent.
I just wanted to help you.
If I could die for you
nothing would make me happier...

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You're always watching over me from within me.
When I close my eyes and think about you,
I can't forget that smile.
From now I'll live my life looking at the same background over and over,
blown by the seabreeze and the light coming from the window.
I'll fall asleep,
even if we never awake again.